yet another year

so i suppose this will be my last post of two-thousand-and-eight. ain't that some shit?

i dont' really have much to say except that i'm happy it's over and that we only have 5.7ish months left until summer break. oh, summer break, how i want thee so badly. could you somehow expedite your return ... maybe?

anyway.

goodbye and good riddance, 2008. hopefully this new year will bear many fruits and gifts and candies.

marley has something to say

edit: and by bitches, marley means my good friends whom she too loves [which is errybody!]... merry christmas!

control yourself, take only what you need from me

2008

so. winter break started a little bit early for me this year. carter stayed at our house from wednesday last week until sunday. it was nice having a person my age around, a fun time indeed. unfortunately, during the school week we were still studying for exams [heh, excuse my vulgarities in the previous post]. i'm so incredibly happy that mid terms are all over with... i've been neglecting my homework, though. there's much to do, even though we are on break. midterms went well, to my surprise; all gov school stuff was fine, i think, and i aced math, and i got a b on the apush. so.

friday night was firstly spent at stone soup, where i told people telling me what to do to fuck off [jkjkjk, would that not have been hardcore or what?]. afterward, carter and i went to the Kronos art gallery in staunton to see our friends jordan and hunter play. the band formally known as 'freakscene' is now 'alex mahmoud and the mahmouds.'


alex mahmoud and the mahmouds

and so carter and i came back home after the show, and watched a 20/20 report on the Boyfriend Killer, or something like that. basically this dude would go and rape women who he would stalk for a couple of months beforehand. turns out the guy was a local cop. shit's crazy.

on saturday, carter and i made a trip through the fogs of the shenandoah mountains. we got to charlottesville and it was sort of dreary, but all was good. i got my christmas presents from vendors on the mall, but had to hit an ATM first. turns out all i could find that was open was a Wachovia atm, a motherfucking WACHOVIA atm. man, fuck the $3 service charge. before the atm, though, we had lunch at christians, which was delish.

i had emmett and dylan and sam over on saturday night. after the awkward greet with my neighbors, who were having a holiday dinner with my parents, everything was smooth. we went for a walk a little after, and it was dark, and sam and carter decided to have a race to the end of the street. carter fell really weird and it was scary. i was worried her bruise would get infected, but it didn't, which is good. theeennn after the walk we went to movie gallery to pick a movie, but we couldn't find anything and concluded that Run Lola Run would be fine. and it was. i think it was a hit.

i also peer pressured my friends into stealing. candy. from martins.

the next day was a kind of strange one. one full of questions, which were resolved by the time carter's parents came and picked her up. it was odd after she left, the house felt a little emptier, but back to what i'm used to.

monday marked the first day of winter break where i had no commitments when i had woken. i called my bitch Martha up and we decided to straight kick it, if you naw'mean. well first we decided to go to Swananoa, this crazy castle out in the afton mountains. she said nobody lived there and i said there was, but i drove anyway. we got to the top of the driveway, near this building behind the house, when i realized there were lights on inside. upon further inspection, i saw a white jeep parked in the back. time to jet.

we drove off to a nice spot where we could look on to the valley. i called joe lucas, who recently put up pictures on facebook, about the white jeep problem. turns out that the white jeep is the owner's - as in - the white jeep belongs to the person who owns the place - as in - somebody LIVES THERE. also, joe mentioned to me that the owner is not happy with the number of teenagers who go around the building hoping to find haunted shit. woops.

martha and i had to find something to do. we went to humpback, got a little ways up, got cold, took pictures, and left. i'll just have you know that i was in a long sleeve shirt, in windy coldy mounatin weather. so.

oh, and i got a hair cut later.

TUESDAYYXZ was spent lollygagging around and shit. tyler and i went to stone soup, and i got my sister the book Once Upon a Tart - a cookbook for them to use in their new house. i think they'll like it fine. later on we met up with carter and went out to staunton. that was pretty fun, especially waffle house! likeohmygod, that was quite the first experience.

waffle house is such a cool place. if i smoked cigarettes, i'd totally go here every morning and every night and smoke my fags and eat waffles. and i would make sure to ask for the blueberry topping and make extra sure to ask for extra whipped cream. and also cross my fingers that the butter has melted.

and so. here i am. today i hung out with travis and jordan for a little while, but not long, seeing as how it's christmas eve and all... we opened presents tonight. i got the jacket that i really want. but i stupidly asked for the wrong size. so we have to send it back and wait. and wait. and wait.

i'll post more before the new year. merry christmas, world.

nothing on my back

i'm 6 hours from snapping, big time.

i've had a grand total of 4 hours of sleep in the past 38 hours. and i don't expect to be going to bed tonight, because i'm still 1 chapter shy of being done with my outlines. and i need to study all of that shit too. and i need to write my essay, but hopefully i'll be able to do that between the hours of 8:45-10 at govorners school tomorr-- oh wait, i'm sorry -- today.

and then the apush exam. and then after that, at 12, i'm going to come home and sleep. for 4 whole uninterrupted hours. and then i'll wake up, and do the case 7 lab and resolution, because it's so fucking boring and i can't do dat' sheet on no sleep (ie right now). but apush is okay. and hopefully, hopefully, i'll be done with that by 4pm, when i can start studying my math stuff. i don't really remember anything from math, because i can't commit anything to memory, because i'm a fucking idiot. a fucking tired idiot. but hopefully, if i don't eat dinner, i'll be done studying math by 10 or 11. and then i'll review all my science shit again, because i need to take 2 quizs and a test by thursday.

i don't even know why i'm doing environmental science. i hate it.

shit's about to hit the fan.

i'm 200 types of weird

and counting.

much homework to do tonight. it's 1 am. fuck.

so i was going through the hard drive, screwing around, you know. so i come across these pictures! hahaha, holy whapz. these are from the 9th grade, which wasn't that far away. i guess we were excited about the new computer or something? i remember this was the day we were working on a history project, and the rest are IDK pictures of myself. yay webcamszz!

i'm fragile

what a long, long week. it's been physically draining. but before i write this, let me mention that i just woke up from a 3 hour nap, and it's 12am, so, bear with me if it seems as if i'm rambling.

monday was so long and stressful. that night was the last quiz bowl competition of the year, which is a bit relieving because now i can go to govorners school on mondays. i believe i was up doing math homework online this night; i'm starting to get better at math! or maybe it's just chapter 4... but it seems as if i'm understanding it alright, even if i don't really do the book homework. oh yes, i was also trying to study for my humanities exam, but i ended up falling asleep like i always do. i can never stay up. on the bright side, the exam wasn't as bad as i had anticipated and i'm pretty sure i did well.

tuesday was another normal day at school. i went to carter's house afterward. actually, i went to stone soup with carter afterward, and had a cookie and gingerale, i think. but then carter realized she had to go to some meeting for concert choir for a thing she volunteered for at the country club. THEN i went to carter's house, where we vented about how messed up it was that our demonstration exam was taken over by a member of our group. before i left, we walked her dogs.

pictures [the first one is of carter picking up dog poooooop, which i refused to do] :

and so i went home and cut up 28 3"x3" pieces of cardboard. and did my homework, whatever that was.

wednesday was the day of our group demonstration, which, suprisingly went well. i'm trying to think about what happened today, and i think i was tired, which made carter think i was in a bad mood, which i partially was because of said group take overage. but, i didn't mean to come off as rude, which i'm pretty sure i did. and so the day went on and i went to work after school, where kylene came and got a to-go order [a sandwich and a cup of soup]. right while she was leaving, carter came in. and soon after so did sam and dylan! that was exciting, since i hardly ever see my friends at stone soup. as the night went on, math homework was finished, apush outlining was ignored, and studying for the studio exam happened.

i took my studio exam on thursday. it wasn't too bad except that there was a bunch of stuff from the 'right side of the brain' book, which i think screwed me over for a small portion. what screwed me over the most was my egg drawing. i mean, fuck the blind contour and the normal contour - i rushed through those since i didn't have much time and mrs.vaughn can't really say anything about them. what i fear was my 'shading' of the eggs and the wrapped up towel around it. i avoided the 6 steps of shading and just tried to sketch it by direct observation, which, i dunno, made some ugly ass eggs.

it's selfish for me to complain about something so small, though. thursday night i got word from suzi about a girl from our school who died. at this time, probably around 7pm, the only thing i knew was that 'a girl named Lindsay, a freshman in freshtones, died because a car hit her.' as the night progressed and word kept leaking, and a news report was on the net by 11. CLICK.

so i still didn't know who she was today [friday] when i went to school. on my way out of APUSH, i noticed a decorated locker. when i went over, i realized it was her. the girl who died lives 2 houses behind me, and she has for the past 6 years. i never really talked to her because of the age gap, and i feel so horrible about that now. shit. i remember this one time when it was raining hard and her mom gave us a ride to school so we didn't have to wait in the storm. a nice family, indeed. i couldn't even imagine how torn up our family would be if something like that happened. i've noticed cars there all day, so it's good to see plenty of support from around the community.

i was thinking about how fucking fragile our lives are - our bodies and our brains and everything we've got. death is such a weird thing; like, there's no warning signs when it's about to happen. she probably was expecting the furthest thing away from dying when she went to go get food from hardees after school. fuck.

UHH, so anyway.

after school was the environmental club meeting, which i showed up to late, again. i don't think i really missed out on much though. we went to chickpeas after, which was cool.

i really need to start carrying a real camera on me.

and sooo. i came home, went to take a nap, which ended up being a 3 hour sleep - that's how much sleep i get some nights - which is insane. and then i woke up, had a bowl of cereal, stepped outside for a second. and holy shit! the sky is beautiful tonight!

this was not taken with a camera phone, haha
[click on it for full size]

and so. that was a week in review.

i'm going to sleep.

in the same boat.

so. last week i went to bed at 4 am because i waited until the last minute to work on maximum homework. well. i'm the same fucking boat again. i've been putting off homework for the past 6 hours, doing everything i can to avoid it. and so, here i am, blogging about my troubles hoping that somebody will read it.

I ONLY GOT 1 E-QUAY-SHUN ON MAH' MIND:
winter break = 2 weeks away.

ergo. 2 weeks of exams, outlines, etc. i hope i can get through it.



it's so hard not to be crushed,
when you're praying for too much,
and the stars refuse to shine for you,
they do it just to spite,
well they know, you're trying too hard



[EDIT: 10:12PM (~2 hours later) have i ever told you how G i feel when i'm doing math problems and listening to 'Hail Mary' by 2Pac? because i do. i almost feel too G. what do we have here now, do you want to ride or die? la-lala-la la la]

across the country

my mother didn't seem totally opposed to heading cross country. and i found out that she's not too keen on beach week.

and today went very, very swell. much better than yesterday, yes. and that is all that has to be said about that.

"so if you want to burn yourself, remember that i love you,
and if you want to cut yourself, remember that i love you,
and if you want to kill yourself, remember that i love you,
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead,
send me an IM, i'll be your friend."

a picture from today, taken in math. i'm not sure if he noticed i took it:



p.s) i finally, finally turned in my global warming paper. theoretically, i could have sent it in a couple days ago, and theoretically, if i didn't get off track from my schoolwork so much, i could have finished it up and turned it in in the timespan of half an hour. 2 weeks ago. but i'm trying to get better at focusing. i'm trying.

nothing worked today

mmm, yes. nothing worked today.

except:


hehehe.

everything worked today

so. today was a good day. a day i wish i could put on repeat for the rest of the year. waking up was the worst part. er, maybe it's homework, which i have a lot of. but.

[for the record, i was inspired by carter to write up a post about my whole day]

it started at 5:45 when my cat was meowing at my door. i got her meows mixed up with the alarm clock and thought to myself, 'damn, already time to wake up?' ... i soon realized it was only my cat - which is not the alarm clock. but first i looked at my phone for a quick second to make sure that i usually wake up at 6:30, not 5:45. it was a puzzling morning, indeed. so, i was thinking, since carter told me the night before via text message that she would not need a ride to school this morning, i could take my time waking up and getting ready for school. i woke up at 6:50, which is twenty minutes later than usual, and got ready for school. i got out of the door by about 7:20, which is ~5 minutes later than usual. and when i got to my car, well, damn, i realized i needed to scrape all that ice off my windshield.

I LOVE WINTER.
sike!

so it goes. anywho. it was a good morning.

and so, as the day progressed, i made it to govorners school on time, parking in the lot that carter hates, egypt. humanities went well; i drew a picture of an individual who will go unnamed, made small talk with jeremy about said unnamed girl, and grossed ellen out with my open-zipped jeans. expecting a dough nut, i was saddened when carter didn't have one for me. but it's all good. all good. she had bloodwork done this morning, so i found it out of the goodness of my heart to buy her a drink, so she wouldn't faint. she kept insisting, 'no, alex, i'm fine, i'm okay' but i said, "look carter, i don't want you to faint, so here's this dollar. buy a drink." she then took the dollar and ripped it into tiny pieces, placing it into the little cup you put quarters in for poptarts in mrs.conner's office. i bought her a mr.pibb anyway because i'm a wonderful friend.

everything after not getting a dough nut did not happen, it was a joke.

in art, we worked on our mask for The King and I. it was great, it really was. i still can't figure out how i'm going to work these ears for my hound, so i gave up. it looks like a twist between a pig and a bull, but oh well, maybe that's what a dog from Taiwan looks like. it was nice that Jordan was back at school today. we sat near Stu, who works at Wintergreen with Hunter and Jordan and Tawny. Tawny told me a little more about her canon rebel today, and we made small talk about her mannequins that she bought from Steve and Berry's [which is shutting down].

on the way home, carter and i talked it up.

and onto lunch, where i was harassed by everybody about going out of town so often. i got called out on the one time where i said i was going out of town when i really wasn't so that i could work on homework. whatever.

what really made my day was math. today i seemed to get everything a lot more clearly than yesterday; granted, yesterday i was running on two hours of sleep, but still. mrs.gross helped rachael and i out with the composite functions - and now i feel alright with Chapter 4, Section 1. it was great, because that sort of thing never happens. and the period after, band, was the normal. nothing out of the ordinary, i sat and played with my sidekick and text messaged and web browsed and made jokes with edward and talked to ethan.

after school, martha and i decided we should go get some candy from martins, so we did. i got a small piece of chocolate - smaller than a ghiradeli square, when a stupid worker came into the candy aisle and we decided to jet out. no need to go to jail over candy, right? whilst walking back to my car, her mom called to notify her that she needed to get to the staunton mall since she accidentally locked herself out of the car. i tagged along for the ride, and it was much fun.

life's good. this homework waiting for me isn't.

edit: mmm, i like putting up pictures on my posts. if you're interested, here's what i'm turning into mixed media tomorrow. we were supposed to put together a news article about where we see ourselves in X amount of years. i made the article part of it up as i went along but i kind of like the layout.


yikes.

delicious

since thanksgiving has just come and gone, i thought it would be appropriate to make a cup of hot cocoa, seeing as how we have all these ingredients in our house. so i use this hershey's hot cocoa stuff, thinking this is going to be delicious. the last ingredient that you add, before the last 20 or so seconds, is vanilla extract. the recipe calls for 1/4 tsp (teaspoon) of vanilla extract, and i accidentally added 1/2 tbsp (tablespoon) - this means that i added way too much vanilla extract. 'well,' i thought, 'a little extra vanilla extract isn't going to hurt, right?' ... so i went on with the cocoa. first i went through my fridge and found some whipped cream we used for a pie on thanksgiving, and scoop, there was a spoonful of whipped cream on my hot cocoa. but what about sprinkles? starbucks uses sprinkles and their hot cocoa is delicious, so, sprinkles it was. finally, we had marshmallows for those potato things, so a handful of those too.

i thought this was going to be delicious, but, too much vanilla extract, too much whipped cream, and nasty old sprinkles make for a not so great cup of hot cocoa. oh well, it looked pretty, right?

shit. shit shit fuck.

i've got 10 pages to outline,
and to study,
and take this at home test.

fuck.

thanksgiving break: in pictures

tuesday, november 25 (baltimore, md)

my brother and i went to baltimore to spend the night at my sister's. she exchanged ava for the night with my parents. we walked around a little bit and then they got some alcohol. i drank beer, got into two bars (was served at one), and took many pictures. it was a good night... it was kind of cool finally being old enough to be 'in' with my older siblings, as i have always seen them going out and partying and i always staying at home with the parents, watching 20/20 or To Catch a Predator. and i think that's what made the night fun, and the alcohol consumption was a bonus.

pictures:

siblings [mustafa, neelab, myself]

baltimore bridge at night

tilted building... very cool in real life

wednesday, november 26 was half spent in baltimore and half spent on the road. we got to waynesboro around 8 and i fell asleep shortly thereafter.

pictures:

on our way to Donna's, somewhere in downtown baltimore


ava made a gingerbread house with her bibi jan (my mom, ie farci for grandmother).
she was pretty excited to show us when we got home.



thursday, november 27: thanksgiving

does anybody see a face in the spinach dip?

thanksgiving was spent rejoicing everything that we're grateful for... kind of. actually, it was a day to clean, clean, cook, clean, and have family over. only i didn't do much of anything, which means kudos to duh' parental units! mom made a huge dinner of everything and it was delicious. and i drank some more. i ate ate ate some turkey turkey mashed potatoes. and we've got leftovers, too! joy!

pictures:

family


i love my mother.

friday, november 28 was a day to sit back and chill. no pictures taken. i slept in, had breakfast, and played with ava. neelab and ben and ava were planning on going home at noon so they could start priming the walls of their home, but their contractor, Phil, was still not done priming their ceilings. so around 3 neelab, my mother [who invited herself, heh, jehkay], and i went to go see the new james bond movie. we ran into emmett and some of his family -- i met his cousin -- at the end when we were leaving. i didn't see them while coming in.

saturday, november 29 (blacksburg, va)

so on saturday, mustafa and i woke up around 6 to head out to blacksburg. we parked at the same spot he used to park at, in front of the apartment he lived in for 3 years. it was free parking, up for grabs to anyone who wanted to park there. then we went to the Hokie House, a restaurant/bar. i had a Hokie Burger, fries, and water, it was delicious. mustafa got his ticket from a scalper, which is cool, because there's some law that says scalping is legal in blacksburg, but illegal pretty much everywhere else in virginia. umm, then the game! that was lots and lots of fun, especially because VT beat UVA, 17 to 14. we made new friends while there, but i doubt we'll ever see them ever again. heh. there was horrible traffic on the way back.

pictures:

inside cassel coliseum (yees, it's spelled like that)

this girl is a bio major, and it was her last game as a student, ever.
she's so lucky.

new (drunk) friends made.

and now, it is sunday. mustafa leaves back for california tomorrow, and i'll be heading back to school. i've done no homework, meaning, i've not even opened my backpack except to send some notes on the caste system to carter.

i still have half of chapter 14 to outline, the take home test, and the some graphic organizers to do for apush. i've got an essay for humanities, wrap up an essay for apes, and maybe, hopefully, a lab before i fall asleep for apes too. but all in all, i'm quite pleased with the way thanksgiving break went.

3 weeks till winter break,
-alex

i'm determined to by happy

and if that means not going to bed tonight, well, hotdamn, i'm not going to go to bed.

i'm an everybody, just like you.

i'm starting to slack, i'm starting to fall behind. i haven't done homework for two nights in a row because i fear the amount of work it will take. so i went to bed instead. and i woke up really late this morning, 6:53 to be exact. i managed to take a shower and everything, though.

today i started to fall asleep in APUSH, multiple times. that last 30 minutes was the worst. i can say that i paid no attention in those 30 minutes. which makes me feel like shit.

and now, i'm in 'envioronmental science' - what a fucking joke. i'm 2.3 units behind. i've got to retake a quiz, do 2 labs, write 2 resolutions, and finish my essay (i'm a little over half way done, so that's 800 more words) over thanksgiving break. which isn't all that bad. but.

and APUSH, oh, shit, apush. i've got a hell of a lot of outlining to do. somewhere around 30 pages left? which isn't all that bad, but that will take a while. and i have a rough draft of a rhetorical situation paper due on friday, but that shouldn't be too terribly difficult. hmmm.

after next week, and after thanksgiving break, i'll be on track, and these dreary posts will be a thing of the past. i'm looking forward to that.

-a

a funny thing just happened

i thought class was over. i'm sitting in the very front of the library (or rather, on the very side, facing the inside of mrs.galenis's office). anywho, so i thought it was over because i heard paper shuffling and backpack closing from the class behind me. i closed all my windows, signed out of virtual virginia, and saved my (lack of a) essay on global warming. i put all my books away, unplugged my flash drive, and got up. when i turned around, the class was still behind me, still working on their papers. i felt pretty dumb.

...i think they're watching.

ps) travis came back today, hooray. i was starting to get worried that he was laying dead somewhere in china town. he actually just went to see his girlfriend; supposedly he stayed in her dorm with her, and got a round-trip ticket for $20 (the china town bus - i looked it up and it's legit! https://www.apexbus.com/BuyTicket.aspx?from=2&to=1). so, yeah, that's what he did. his parents aren't mad, but all the teachers are. and he went to a hookah bar last night. i wish i were that cool... uhhhhhhhhh

week/end

these are a few of the pictures i took throughout the week. i'm procrastinating doing my homework. after this is time to hit the books.

(1) this is katie fitzgerald's pet gerbil. she brought it to school in her hoodie pocket.
it was precious. i held it for a little bit and then passed it on to sam.


(2) this is me throwing up. jeremy drew it in humanities the other day
[friday, actually] on a piece of notebook paper. i put it into photoshop and added
the color. random fact: green and yellow makes people queezy.


(3) ellen was putting the mixed media installation up in the junior lounge. i
snapped a picture because she usually jumps out when you tell her you're
about to take her picture. kekeke

(4) this room was empty, right across from the tea bazaar [house?] in
downtown staunton.


(5) hunter's arm. location: outside the tea house in staunton.


(6) the opening band at last night's show - iodic
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(7) tyler played a small set while freak scene set up


(8) freak scene played. and very well. so did everyone else.
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=363660040

now. time to do homework.

EDIT: it's now 10:04 pm, i've barely gotten anything done. i've got a rough night ahead of me ... i even already emailed mr.calhoun and told him i won't be able to attend duh' quiz bowl tomorrow night.
ps) how do you complete the square of x^2-4x+5?

EDIT 2: now it's 11:45. i've gotten the most done between the last edit and now today, which isn't saying a lot for me, because that's only 11 math problems. UHHHG.

untitled

i love you, standing all alone in a black coat

as of lately

these are my feelings from the past week. in one clump:

on school:
1. we have 1 and 3/4 of a year left until senior year, which we'll be going to college after. which means i won't see a lot of my friends.
2. where the hell am i going to college? in state or out?
3. what major should i go into? architecture? industrial design? ... pornography?
4. when should i start filling out scholarship stuff?
5. when am i going to retake the SATs?
6. how am i going to get back on track with science and history?
7. how am i going to start making cream? [keke]

on home:
8. i miss: my father's old lumina
8a. the comfort of riding in my father's old lumina
8b. going to cub scouts in my father's lumina
9. i miss: being in elementary school
[this i realized on friday night, when sawyer and i were playing on the playground, and we cloudily reminisced about the old days, and how the playground used to be so much bigger, and the bench that we always sat in during play time because we had time out. on a side-note, i laid down on the ground and the sky was clear as day, and then i realized how small i am, and how big the stars that coincide with the moon and the sky are, and how i'll never, ever be that big. it was not as overwhelming as i make it seem, rather, it was ... breathtaking to say the least]
9a. and i miss the innocence that comes along with being young

and finally, ten.
10. i can't belive fall is already here again. time is going by so quickly and it feels like i haven't gotten a chance to soak in a whole year yet.. fuck.

10. fall:


i'll miss you, i'm going back home to the west coast.

uhg

so, damn.

i failed my apush quiz, and my apes quiz too. and i received an apush test earlier this week that i failed. so, that's 3 F's in 1 week. but i'll retake the apes quiz next week since i have a second attempt. but.

i used to be so studious and so such, but i've gotten lazy lately. i think it's my lack of focus, which, at the end of the day, makes me feel like crap. and then i see people around me, like tyler and peter bihl who seemingly don't do very much outside work and manage to get straight a's. how come i stay up until 1 or 2 some nights, doing my homework, and still can't manage to get my stuff straight? why, why, WHY?

i suppose i'm just being bitter. although, i still do in fact feel like complete shit. and will tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after that too.

hello, new president.

yes, we can.

here i am

i have a few minutes, in the library. i'm definitely ignoring what i've got to do. i'm confused as i have no idea how i'm going to go about doing my homework tonight - we have quizbowl and hopefully i'll get stuff done on the bus.

i've got about 20 pages to outline for APUSH, a chapter to read for MATH, and a LAB for apes. wish me luck.

love, alex.